I got this tag made for me by Jenny Sunshine Expressions.... So fitting because it suits me right now to a "T".
I laugh continuously...belly laugh. I smile and talk to anyone and everyone. I get along with most anyone and everyone. People gravitate toward me...Lord only knows why but they do. And yet, beneath my surface lurks a total whacko, a loon, a completely crazy lady. Most times this lady is invisible to even myself but every once in a while, the looney lady rears her ugly head. I am reminded that...yes, I do suffer from chronic depression; not often, but it will never go away. It will always lurk beneath my exterior.
I've learned to live with the rare times that my depression roars its ugly head. I still smile when I want to scream. I still do what I have to do but it's darned rough.
My doctor, who is also my son's doctor, thinks I also have a seasonal disorder thing which appears to get worse as I age...jim dandy. Throw in nicotine withdrawal, and it makes me one "hot mess." I'm also spastic right now because in the good old USA it's tax time. I claim far too many dependents. Last year I got almost just enough back to pay off a small wage tax that is charged each year in Pa. communities. This year, I know I will owe. This just makes me a total basket case. I'm just waiting on my W-2. Then it's time to get the bad news and move on plus lower my deductions which will lower my income...grrrr. Sometimes I wish some fairy godmother would wave that wand over me and drop a load of cash. Don't we all?
For those that don't read my graphics journal, Megan had cryosurgery; got frozen and the machine crapped out. She cried; I laughed as the doctor struggled to "defrost" her. Now, we just both laugh as it's the story of our lives.
Joey is taking welding classes for the Steamfitter's Union. There will be a test; an interview; and then 20 out of the 200 will be picked for the apprenticeship job. Lord, that boy needs a break. He's been going to classes every day in addition to the Saturday class. Please say a huge prayer for him. My son is such a hard worker but gets such stage fright during interviews. He starts a heating and air conditioning class at the community college in a week or so. His "adopted" parents paid for the class. That was such a blessing. This is all tied into the Steamfitter's thing. I haven't mentioned it because I'm afraid I'll jinx it; superstitious me.
I'm going to have to reapply to keep him on my health insurance again as it was only for two years. He still is not on his feet and cannot exist without insurance nor can he be on the Pa. waiting list for Cobra insurance for a year. His meds are far too expensive.
So much is up in the air right now. I don't like unanswered questions because it will totally bug me.
The snow keeps falling. The "drears" are so dreary. I'm making a conscious effort today to clean this house. I simply never have time during the week. LOL...I'll get it done and by Wednesday, you'll never be able to tell. Oh well, enough blah from me.
I'm making a pot of homemade vegetable beef soup. I'm hoping to at least get the family room and kitchen in order.
Oops, I did my grocery shopping yesterday at Wally World. They have the turn table thingy for the bags. I always check to make sure I have them all. Yesterday I didn't and sure enough I got home missing a bag. My BF was going after I did so I asked him to pick it up. I was laughing because I told him to write down what was in the bag...lightbulbs, dog treats, hairspray, body wash but forgot to tell him about the air freshners for the car. They didn't want to give him the bag because he forgot one thing. Finally the manager came over and said to give him the darned thing. I wondered what was taking him so long to drop it off. Poor Griz was howling for his treats...lol
Have a wonderful Sunday....actually now that I've vented I think I do feel better. Love you all! BTW: my AOL problems disappeared so I have no idea why the damaged file thing popped up. I'm not complaining.
Chris (Thanks, Lisa Jo, for the Hugs graphic! I'm dreaming of spring flowers.)