I really want to thank each and everyone of you for all your comments and support yesterday. It was one of those days where I just wanted to crawl in a hole and hide. My head was pounding all day, and I felt sick. I also prayed a lot.
My BF had known this since Jan. and hadn't said a word until he was unusually in a tizzy himself. I wished, at first, that he hadn't said anything. Now, I'm sort of glad because I know who the enemy is. How I will deal with it, I haven't decided yet.
It took every ounce of energy to get myself to work today. I was curled up in a little ball this morning wishing I could just hide. I'm not a quitter so I faced my foes. Quietly. I haven't said anything yet. The time will come.
I felt no bitterness yesterday; just crushing disappointment and despair after the anger wore off. It will be hard to find another job. I have to stay with the govt because of my health insurance. OPM has continued Joey on my health insurance past age 22 for at least another two years. It will then go up for review again. I could never get another employer to cover him if I left the govt. Govt. jobs are really scarce now. When someone leaves, there is no hiring a replacement. We just suck up the work. My only hope, right now, is that the VA Hospital has some postings on their internal board. The govt. website is very slow. My age is also a drawback. Although age discrimination is against the law, it is done still. I will just continue to pray that God will open a door and show me the way. I also pray that He continues to protect me against the evil things going on and keeps surrounding my own personal aura with love and peace.
My BF is going to work until the end of April. It is more beneficial for his retirement. He will use up his sick leave in bits and pieces. He is a strong person and will be able to do this. He will walk out with his head held high.
Onward I march, as always. Joey told me the sewage company came today and had him flush dye down the toilet. I'm flipping a little bit because some neighbors have had to have line replacements which have cost them a few thousand....eeeeek. I never sent my line coverage policy in. It was offered about a month ago. You have to have it 30 days before it takes effect. Three years ago it was fine when my plumber checked it but I'm in a bit of a panic. Of course, Joey would never think to ask if there was a problem. I'm calling tomorrow to see if it was routine or what. So, I'm praying big time that there is nothing wrong and then, if not, I'm sending my line protection paperwork in because the pipes are clay and 90 years old.
Hope I haven't missed anybody in my visits. I know I have. I will be around to make all my visits tomorrow night. Love to all and thank you so much for being there.........CHRIS