Saturday, July 29, 2006

  ROFL...this is most definitely fitting for me this week.  Thanks to Nutters in my PSP group for tagging this for me.

Before I go off on one more rant trip, I want to wish Barb  Diary of a Mad Woman  a happy birthday.  Stop by and wish her one.  LOL..also have a good question for her to answer...hey, she asked for it.

Thanks to Coastal Comfort Sharon, I know why this week has been a mess.  It's Mercury causing this.

I should probably keep my big mouth shut but I won't because right now I really don't give a rat's behind who reads this or what they think. 

It all started with my crying over my nest egg being depleted.  Wed was an ok day....a pizza party at work, my doc's appt for my blood pressure, which was 110/66 and some pool time.

LOL...then I read Sharon's journal about Mercury wreaking havoc and thinking....yeah, right.  Hmmm...the next day, I get a voice mail message and text from Becky crying hysterically that her piece of crap Tempo that my mom gave her needs numerous repairs totalling $600.  Should she fix it or not and would I "loan" her the money.

Oy vay, the first thing I do is call my mom to see what she thought I should do.  Man, it gets better.  She said she would call my brother.....oh, I hate this.  She called me back and said "G" said to get it fixed.  She would pay for it.  She told me to call him and tell him what all had to be done.  The little girl in me was cringing because 1.  I don't trust my brother....2.  I have many reasons not to.  Luckily, for the moment my cell phone died on the bus from so many calls.

I got home and charged my phone.  Joey had to call his uncle, my brother, about picking paychecks up for the cemetary or something.  I bit the bullet and said to let me talk to him next.  WELL....he went off on a rampage once again, getting angrier by the moment that I'm bleeding my mother dry, we need to learn to live on our own (my kids and me), my mom is almost broke, etc. etc., she is getting too mellow with me, and many other things I simply won't awknowledge on here.

My mom has been paying my mortgage since Sept. of 2004.  I lost $700 in child support at that time due to Megan turning age 18.  I couldn't regroup and still haven't.  My mother's mind is very sharp.  She knows to the penny what she has and would not have offered to pick up my mortgage if she couldn't afford to.  I feel terrible every day of my live about this but am thankful beyond belief for it.  I do not ask her for another cent except if I absolutely have to.  I had to this time for Becky's car.  It killed me to do it.

The trash my brother said about Becky and implied about other things angered me but I said nothing and ended the call as soon as I could.

I have things I need to discuss with my mother and simply can't because it would totally undo her right now so I pray for God's guidance in a couple of situations that are really eating away at me concerning my brother.

So, Thursday night I took Grizzly for a walk and balled my eyes out once again because my dad is gone and I'm left in a nightmare right now.  I also live in total fear that something is going to happen to my mom.  She has gallstones, not a biggie and they found some cysts on her kidneys.  I'm so terrified of being left in the control of my big brother.

My BF has a semi-crisis on his hands right now also but I'm not even going into that right now.

I have to call my mom to see if she is ok.  According to my brother, I upset her by my phone call.  She didn't sound upset to me the both times I talked with her so I think "someone" else upset her.  Nuff said (probably too much but, like I said, at this point in time, I really could care less.)

I apologize for not getting around to visit.  I've been online but just staring at the screen for a few days.  I've regrouped and I'm moving on.  God will see us through this somehow, someway.

Love you all...........


sugarsweet056 said...

Man...seems so many of us having $ problems! GRRR
I'm standing in prayer with you dear over all the things you mentioned, may God bless.
Hugs, Sug

queeniemart said...

Your pathetic excuse for a man brother can kiss my huge fat behind.....truly. Do not for one second feel bad for your mom helping you..take the help, do what you can in life and do it to the best of your ability. In time, your daughters will get on their feet and things for you will improve financially and you can be there for your mom. I will pray for her, you and your bf. I hope whatever he has going on is not too awful bad. I want to kick your brothers ass for making you feel this anxiety. Screw him. He is probaly worried he wont get any cash later on.
What business is it of his anyway?


lanurseprn said...

Wow Chris!!  What a week!  Maybe it IS the stars and planets??  I've never believed in that stuff....but I do know when it's a full moon the ER goes nuts.
Have a good weekend.

lv2trnscrb said...

hugs to you Chris; hoping the weekend goes smooth for you and you get some down time and relaxful time and time for yourself. (I'm sure Becky is having a hard time of it now because she is committing to find out about God and the enemy is not liking it so he is tempting her more and causing things to go wrong so that she/you will take your focus off the Lord).


jeadie05 said...

Oh Chris your brother is probably stirring up mischief ,hope things straighten out .....Jan xx

buggieboo1 said...

just stopping by to say HI


xomywayox said...

You brother is sooo jealous and it's showing. You did right by not battling with him. Because any battle you get into  with him, is a battle lost. Go straight to the MonArch Mom. Talk to her, settle these feelings of yours. And then you will win.

Chris, it's ok to get help. Even if it's hard to stomach. It has to be done. And don't forget to play the lottery! LoL

Love Ya Sista....Brenda

jckfrstross said...

praying for you chris:)


kdcutie26 said...

Your brother is on my icky list.  I am sorry that this is happening right now Chris.  A mother's love is there for her daughter like you are there for Becky, your mama is there for you.  Your brother has a 20 foot stick up his ass and I'm not afraid to say it.  You are my darling and if you need someone to drive to where he is and fart in his face I will do it!

am4039 said...

it's none of your brother's business what your mom gives your or not gives you. If she didn't want to help she wouldn't. I'm praying for you that things get better and hopefully your brother will stop being a jerk to you. So Sorry.

mgmturner said...

Your brother is probably wanting your mom's money & is afraid you're taking it all!  Sheesh!  It's a shame he can't see that you need the help and that your mom is able and wants to give it.

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now.  Prayers for peace and resolution!


candlejmr said...

I remember once, when my kids were babies, my sister in law did the same sort of thing.  My girls were 2 1/2 and about 2 months at the time, and my DH and I had a wedding to go to.  We asked my in-laws to watch the little ones.  It was a LONG day and they had them from early afternoon until late evening.  That night, my SIL gave my husband (her brother) this big speech about how his parents were "too old to have to take care of these littles one all day long, it was alot on them and we should have known."

Fast forward TEN YEARS and keep in mind, these people didn't get any younger!!! Now my SIL has the same people babysit for her THREE KIDS ALL DAY LONG while she goes to work!

Your brother isn't happy because something is going on and it isn't benefitting HIM.  Ignore him.  Talk to your mom and make sure it's all OK with her and if she says YES...then just move on!

Don't let your brother get you down!


thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Awwww! I am so sorry for what you are going through...And I am sure you know your mother...and if she couldn't then she couldn' grandmother would could not help my brother or me there in the end cause the last times she helped my brother it was a doosey...not one of the cars getting paid off or a amount on a payment...he got himself in a pickle with the IRS and owed lots a cash and then he lost his job at boeing and went bank rupt...I too was helped many times along the way...but everytime I could I repayed grandfather still has money but you know the amount someone his age would have if they had an emergency to hold them over a few years...I too...have a dramatic thing taking place...a control issue with a certain someone...and have been in a daze...Hugs,TerryAnn

chat2missie said...

I'm sorry your going thru this crap.  Life is hard!  Don't we all know it!  I think it's best to get your daughters car fixed.  You can't buy another car for $600!!.  Hope the rest of your weekend went better.

imgr8phil said...

It seems like when it rains it pours.  You are going through a down part in your life but things will get better and stay positive about that.  Do everything you can to ensure that your future will be bright.  Take whatever steps necessary to ensure that when the time ever comes that your mom is not around that you can survive and flourish on your own.  Take care and have a good Sunday.


pennietoonz said...

Chris, I`m sorry to hear you are under so much stress. I`m sure your mom knows what she`s doing. Your brother seemes to want to stir up trouble. I have been dealing with some of that in my own life lately, from a different source. We all need help from time to time. You know my # if you ever want to call or need to talk. Please don`t hold it all inside.
Love you sweetie,

shayshaydc said...

Chris.. I have a brother like that and they can be hard to deal with!!!! Try to ignore him and maybe he will go away!!! LOL... I got so mad at my brother one time that if I hadn't walked away I'd jumped right on him and someone would have had to pull me off!!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrr.... Try not to worry about your mom... if she didn't want to pay your mortgage or if she didn't have the money... she wouldn't do it!!! Hang in there girl....

queenb8261 said...

Hey girlie...thanks for the birthday wish shout out.  I love ya for it.  I had a lot of wonderful well wishes and ecards and cards from my awesome JLand friends.  Hon, we parents do what we can for our kids and do it willingly.  Our 24 yr old son and his 2 daughters are living here right now while he gets back on his feet.  I know someday he will do something for us if he can.  But that's not why we do it.  We love our children and we had them and they are always are OUR children, no matter how old you are.  YOur mother does what she does with love. And you do the same for yours. Try not to stress about it too much.  Not good for the soul.
Love ya...hang in.
Barb b

tpiez4me said...

Oh mercy me......damn Mercury!