Saturday, August 19, 2006

Dear Chrissy

Most likely another serious entry but you can blame it on Brenda  Brenda's Way because I got this from her journal.  I wasn't going to do it but kept thinking about it.  The tag above is probably my favorite.  I did it for a tube entry a few nights ago.  So fitting for an entry that I had no idea I would do.


Knowing what you know now as an adult, if you could write a letter to the little girl/boy you once were what would you say?

Dear Chrissy,

The first thing I want to tell you is that I love you finally.  You are a loving child.  You have had an uncanny ability to put yourself in others' shoes.  You are sensitive.  Use that to your advantage.

Don't let others squash the wonderful aspects you possess...your vivid imagination (and, yes, you keep those imaginary buddies you have).  Continue to lose yourself in books, even though you are told that you spend far too much time closed away and reading.  This will give you the ability to present yourself eloquently and master the English language plus open up new worlds for you to explore.

A half a decade later you still travel with me.  I wish I could prevent the pain and anguish you suffered for many years from adolescence through adulthood with clinical depression.  Knowing what I know now, I don't think I would change it because that has made us what we are.

Let me try and explain something to you that a wise leader in my Bible study revealed to me a good many years ago.  An epiphany of sorts.  Depression is a long, dark road.  I was asked what I would do if I walked out of my front door and saw a child with a dirty, tear stained face sitting on the curb.  Of course, I would embrace that child, wipe the tears away, and offer assistance.  The epiphany occurred instantly.  I knew what was going to be uttered next before it was spoken.  "Chris, that child is you.  Why are you kicking yourself off the curb constantly?"

Healing began and continued once I learned to embrace the child, Chrissy, which will always be a part of me.

So, my child...whenever you speak, I will listen; whenever you cry, I will wipe away the tears; whenever you are in pain or hurt, I will embrace you.

Together we will Fly with the Angels and Dance with the Stars......


Chris (the adult)


jlocorriere05 said...

What a beautiful entry Chris! I'm so glad Brenda asked the question. I was always told I spent too much time reading but I loved it! Pity kids of today don't do it so much as we did. Jeannette xx  

lanurseprn said...

Chris..what a beautiful entry!!  Well done!  It is making me remember my child within.

kdcutie26 said...

What a beautiful thought and a lovely letter.  This is a fantastic idea.  Thank you for sharing this with us Chris.  Hugs to Chrissy.

jckfrstross said...

wow what a great entry:)


ally123130585918 said...

What a lovely entry ~ beautiful letter ~ Ally

lv2trnscrb said...

beautifully and eloquently written, Chris(sy).  Love the tag and loved reading your letter to yourself. I've seen this in other journals; I'm just not quite ready to write my own.

enjoy your weekend


chat2missie said...

That's a beautiful entry.  I love that idea of writing a letter to the child you once were.

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((CJRISSY)))))))))))))))))))))))))wow,you did you a good job at writting to yourself when you was young,I would have no idea what to say and I dont think I am ready for that,I still have alot of learning to do and growing up to do.Thank you for sharing.God bless you and have a great week.

xxroxymamaxx said...

I wish I could do this...I just can't.  You did great though.  Hugs and GBU, Shelly

pennietoonz said...

Chris, This was beautiful and sure put tears in my eyes.
May I also add that I love the person that the child Chrissy grew up to be. I could picture us hanging out and meeting for lunch if we lived closer.
Which reminds me, if you ever feel the need to get away, just call me! I would love another visit from you. And hey, now that I`m getting this new car, I may just pop in on you to say hello. :)
Love you sweetie,

am4039 said...

omg that was wonderful. So very touching. Your a wonderful adult, kind and sweet and caring.

queeniemart said...

i just can not do this.....because so much of me is still that 9 yr old who was told she was unlovable.

I love what you are so awesome you know....such a giving and loving lady and a wonderful friend. I value YOU so much.
lisa jo

xomywayox said...

Oh wow yours brought tears to my eyes. How beautiful....I would have'd love to meet lil Chrissy. But I am very proud to say Chris is my friend.

Will I be seeing you tonight???


thegirlnexdoor77 said...

I loved this entry....hugs to both the child and the adult...TerryAnn

tpiez4me said...

How sweet.....gets me to thinking more about my childhood and my daughter.  I so want more for her!

queenb8261 said...

Love this beautiful entry.  It's so ... soul bearing.  Thank you for sharing it with us.
Hugs, Barb  

siennastarr said...

:*(  Chris this was beautiful.. so heartfelt and real.  It made me get teary.  I went to a psycholgist years ago, and that is one of the first things she ask me to do, was write a letter to the child I used to be.  This brought back many memories!

I saw this in PLittle's journal as one you submitted for us to read!

Love you Chris!  You are awesome!


princesssaurora said...

Oh Chris!!  I don't know how I missed this!!  OMG, in tears here... at the truth of it all....  I am so happy you put this in CarnivAOL!!!!!

be well,

motoxmom72 said...

Chris...I found you through CarnivAOL.  That is an amazing excercise.  I'm going to try that myself.  Thank you for sharing!

rebuketheworld said...

Beautiful!!!!!!!!! I miss the imagination I had as a wasnt full of wounds that had hardened...wounds yes but not the ones that mold you away....The little person inside of us, the one that survived through childhood and growin up version that still remembers.....we carry as adults...if we loose that, we loose a place where we were strong and if we desire just that,,,we wont marvel at our change............I thought your letter put it together wisely...Thank you for sharing that...


lurkynat said...

Dear Chris,
what an inspriational entry!Iloved the contrast between what yuo would have said to be accpting of yuor child, what you did say and what you would have change din the future!awesome!
love you Chris, natalie

nelishianatl said...

I let my child lead these days and she wasn't permitted most of a voice.  I think your words to YOU were so inspiring.  I am going to write a letter to me now.  This looks like fun.  Hard work too, but I'm not afraid anymore.  Great letter and I hope it was affirming and healing.  You sound like you are in a very healthy place.

mrsm711 said...

Chris, I have a private journal that is for the healing purpose of my childhood.  This entry brought tears to me.  I will be writting myself a letter and It will hopefully put all into perspective.  Thanks for continuing to give your time and compassion to us J-landers.  I speak for all of us I'm sure.