Wednesday, January 4, 2006

I've sort of hesitated posting an entry because I've been so darned frustrated and a little down in the dumps and it's only the start of a New Year.  I hate to shout the woes of a single mother but sheesh it's so hard providing emotional support to my kids alone.

My son needs lots of prayers.  Joey is dying emotionally at the Jiffy Lube job.  He has no direction or clue as to what he wants to do.  He has suffered severely from depression in the past.  My fear is he is falling slowly into the crevice again.  It breaks my heart.

I'm also totally frustrated with PA OVR (voc rehab).  The counselor talked him into taking courses at the Community College to get his feet wet the year before last.  The first semester was totally paid for, as it was just experimental courses.  He got a new counselor who assured us the next semesters would also be paid for or reimbursed.  Not so....he just got a bill for $50.00 since he's been out of school for six months.  He accrued $1,800 in loans and now has to pay them back at $50.00 a month.  I can't get through to PHEAA (pa higher education) to ask for a deferrment or something.  Really, I am ready to just sit down and cry.  He owes me $150.00 a month for his car insurance and now this.

Well, crying is getting me absolutely no where so I'm asking that you all include Joey in your prayers because the power of prayer is so strong.

He see his psychiatrist next week for his six month check-up.  Thank the Lord for that.  The doctor has a way of calming him and helping him see things in a brighter light.

And...I got the final determination from my health insurance that he will be covered for at least the next two years as a temporarily disabled adult.  His doctor submitted reams of paperwork which had to be reviewed so his meds will be covered.  A huge relief as they would have cost me $1,600 a quarter. 

And you know what, now that I've gotten this all off of my chest, I feel some strength returning to my sorry soul.  So, off I go again to try to get through to PHEAA...wish me luck.



lv2trnscrb said...

Hugs to you, Chris. I feel your pain. It is so frustrating dealing with the 'system' to get help for our kids especially with any type of mental health problems. BTDT with my daughter for her severe depression.

I'm glad your son is seeing the psychiatrist next week. Maybe a bit of fine tuning with meds might help him.


thisismis72 said...

good luck defiantly, and yes your dear joey along with you will be in my prayers.
Bless you all.

shayshaydc said...

Hey Chris...thanks for sharing.... I'll pray for Joey!! The Lord will work things out!!! Sounds like He has already started!!!! Love you!!!!!

krspkrmmom said...

I completely understand your frustration with PHEAA--at this point, they're garnishing my wages for a defaulted loan.  For the first two years, I got it deferred, but it was way too much of a hassle, and I lost their phone number during some moving process.  Getting in touch with them is like pulling teeth.  Good luck.

As far as Joey goes, I'll keep him and you in my thoughts...God knows it's not easy watching someone fall into the depression hole.  It's good that his meds will be covered, though.  What a relief that has to be.

Hopefully all will somewhat normal soon...

Annie =)

pennietoonz said...

oh Chris, I am sorry you are going through this. I sure will be praying for Joey. Thank God his meds will be covered.
I am really struggling dealing with my mother right now and no health/prescription coverage for me and my daughter til I get back to work.
I know, it`s not easy being a single parent. Sometimes you have to be twice as strong when all you want to do is sit down and cry yourself!
Love and hugs....
God bless,

buggieboo1 said...

Chris I know the stress and emtional toll of single mother hood, my thougths and prayers go out to you and Joey! Shout any time!  HUGS!


jckfrstross said...

oh Chris i will pray for your son i know how hard it is with kids having problems both mine have them also stay strong


bignewmanut said...

You and your son will be in my prayers as well. Sounds like you need a good dose of

xxroxymamaxx said...

Ahhh, {{{{{{Chris}}}}}}!  Hope your feeling better.  Prayers for Joey and You!  GBU, Shelly