ARGGGG!!!

Ok...so this has to get easier, right?  #$#%@   I already cheated so I figured the best thing to do was throw the darned things away.  Better yet, they are now riding away in the garbage truck. 

This isn't the first time I quit.  I actually quit smoking for 16 years and started again in 1991 when we were in a serious car accident and my son was in the trauma unit....geez was I stupid or what?

I was also smoke-free for two days in Aug. when I was in the hospital.  I had chest pains which turned out to be nothing but had a full cardiac work-up because I have high blood pressure.  Now, this is the kicker....they had to quit giving me my medication for my blood pressure as the nicotine cleared my body.  If I don't smoke, my blood pressure is normal.  With the medication and not smoking, it was something like 80/50 which wasn't healthy...LOL.  But I was a total bitch...  I tried to escape so many times but darned if there wasn't someone watching me 24/7.  I would have smoked in the bathroom but they put me in a room with a lady with oxygen.  So, what did I do when I was let loose....smoked a cigarette.  Sheesh......stupid again.

Now the fun starts....I have to break it to my son that there will be no smoking in the house.  He has been trying to quit smoking anyway.

My conclusion is the easiest way to stop smoking is not to start smoking to begin with.

I think I'll take that 4 bucks a day (Pa. price for cigarettes) and put it in a jar.  4 X 365 days.....dayum....that's some serious cash..........

No doubt about it........sorry guys but I have the feeling my journal is going to be x-rated as the days go on.........

 yikes...did I really do this.....I may have to edit it....LOL...but bear with me please because they're coming to take me away...HA HA............

your pal.....christine (think I'll use that as my alter ego until I become sane again)